Death.

I am running out of amazingly, stupendous blog post ideas, therefore, this post will be a jumble and mix of my garbled thoughts. I hope my mass amount of slightly uncommon and brainy words don't mess up your ship-shape minds. I would feel gravely if I did so.

After that quite odd, but neat introduction, I shall tell you of a thought that keeps racing through my mind, always pushing ahead of the other "unworthy" thoughts. Death. Do we feel death, when it comes upon us? If we are shot, would we feel the pain or plainly wake up in Heaven, with angels looking down upon us? If we were stabbed, would we feel the cold of the blade? What does it feel like to be strangled or hanged? These unnerving questions engrave themselves into my brain, causing them to jump at me during the most unwanted times. I try not to arouse them, because I hate unwanted questions frolicking across my empty expanse of mind. I cannot help myself though. I search desperately for answers, but I know that no one can give them. No one knows.....

After such a disconcerting paragraph, I feel exceptionally hunky-dory. My informal ticker feels blithesome. (I may have used that word wrong, but it seemed fit for the situation.)

In the recent month, music has been....everything to me. My mind and heart has been engulfed in the melodies and lyrics of wonderful artists. Different lyrics and tunes ease my internal, emotional pain in many ways and basically fill me with jubilant jollity. I've been listening to a small number of songs recently, but those few songs have added to my comfort and cheer. Those songs are:

Zero by Hawk Nelson

Already Over by RED

How to Save a Life by The Fray

Apologize by OneRepublic

It's Not Over by Chris Daughtry

I guess all of these sort of relate to recent happenings in my life.....it's painful for me to talk of these "things" but I talking of them is the only thing that can help my through the turmoils of life. Since Abby passed away, I've listened to these songs for specific reasons, all relating to the same topic. I'll elucidate at this time.

Zero, I would rather not bring to light, I'd prefer if you would just listen to that one on your own.

Already Over is by RED. RED was one of her favorite bands and the song is the only one I have of the artist....

How to Save a Life....well, it says....."Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life"...I expect that they can explain how I feel....

Apologize...well, that's a tougher one to talk about. See, I feel, for me at least, that it's too late too apologize for some things I may have said that could have hurt her....

And It's Not Over.....the title states the meaning of this song....it's just....yeah....I don't really have anymore words to use to describe.....

Now, my heart is overwhelmed with grief as I think about these things. I am listening to these songs as my fingers type this. My heart cries out....for a friend, for....you know, I don't really know what my heart is crying out for.....I pray continually about it, as the Bible states I should....but....I still feel a gaping hole in my heart....the pain that I'm feeling is like no other. At times all I can do is cry. At times the pain hits me like a wall of brick....because both obviously hurt immensely.....I just don't.....understand.....why she had to leave......

I know as I go through this pain that God will always be by my side....helping me through the thick and thin. The tough things of life......

Angela

Seriously?!

I don't quite understand weather very well.....outside it is bright and sunny, but it is cold at 39 degrees! I want 60 degree weather back!!!!!!!! I had to take the dog out today. I had a coat and sweats on, but ended up jumping up and down to keep myself warm. I was literally shivering and wanted to get inside as soon as I could.

I had a boring math lesson today, which was spiffed up a little bit by me listening to Hawk Nelson on my iHome. It didn't help my concentrate the least bit, but it made math more interesting.

I wrote a guitar song a couple of weeks ago and I've been perfecting it recently. It's called, Dear God. Yes, that title is original. I realize that there are other songs called Dear God, but I had to use the title myself, because almost every line of the song starts with 'Dear God' which may make it sound a little bit corny, but it fits with the song and the meaning, so I had to have it. :p

I think this whole font thing looks pretty cool! I've never tried doing color and different fonts in the same post as I've been doing, but it surprisingly works. I'm actually changing a few of the colors in my background too, if you haven't already noticed.

over and out.

angela

Music Tag

Yeah, really I wasn't tagged to do this, but I don't really care and I couldn't really help myself....so here I am posting it.

List 10 artists in no particular order {before looking at the questions below}.

1. Owl City

2. Hawk Nelson

3. Britt Nicole

4. Skillet

5. Group 1 Crew

6. Brandon Heath

7. Tenth Avenue North

8. Red

9. Francesca Battistelli

10. Kris Allen

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?

Give me Your Eyes. (It was WAY over played....)

What is your favourite song of 8?

Already Over.

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?

Um.....I'm not really sure if they've left an impact, I just like to listen to their music....

What is your favourite lyric of 5s?

I'm so B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!

from the song....Beautiful....

How many times have you seen 4 live?

never. this summer though!!!!

What is your favourite song of 7?

You Are More

Is there any song of 3 that makes you sad?

No....

What is your favourite song by 9?

The problem is that I dislike her....um, it would have to be....Blue Sky

How did you first get into 2?

Well, when I found out that my brother had a few Hawk Nelson CDs on his computer, so I "borrowed" them and started listening and....tada! I loved it.

How did you first get into 3?

Um.....I really don't know.....

What is your favourite song by 4?

Oh! Monster and Hero!!!! And Comatose....haha. I just love Skillet.

How many times have you seen 9 live?

Once. It was awful. (It was free too at a horrible amusement park.)

What is a good memory concerning 10?

Probably the fact that he won American Idol.....

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?

Sort of, I mean "Already Over" could make me sad, but only if I'm sad in the first place and then listen to it, but Red isn't really a sad sort of song band.

What is your fave song of 1's?

Peppermint Winter.

How did you become a fan of 10?

Through American Idol....

Yeah, some of that was really lame!!!!!!!

Anyway......I love music, and I'm really starting to love the band Red. I've been listening to them recently.....

Over and Out.

Angela

Day 16: A melody that causes water and salt to fall from your eyeballs

O_o

I don't know where that title came from. At all.

This question is....very....hard to answer you could say. I mean, I've had songs make me cry in the past...but I think it depends on what I'm feeling at the time. If you know what I mean....of course you do! I'm sure it has happened to all of us at times. We've all cried while listening to a song. Right? Now, trying to remember one of the songs I've cried listening to is a by far harder feat. If i could choose any song that I'm almost sure I've cried about would probably be.....a TAN song. Yeah...that was very discreet.

I would like to say that I have 1242 songs on my iPod. Of course I don't listen to all of them, but when I do listen to them, it can be quite hard to remember the ones that I cried while listening to.

Now, I will go into the ever boring events of my birthday, which just happened to be on Valentine's Day.

I had SAIL, for one, so I was at a "school" all day. I had fun, because like 30 people told me "happy birthday." Of course only like two of them gave me presents, but who cares? Not me! I was happy with a "happy birthday" even if I did want some presents....

At lunch everyone sang to me, which was totally awesome! Totally.

In Drama, I am a French person, so I had to work on a French accent, which I was finally getting the hang of and now I can't remember how I did the silly thing! This happens to me all the time and it can get quite frustrating.

After Drama, my family, my two brothers, Zechariah and Lucas, my mom and dad and I went to see Gnomeo and Juliet in 3D. It was adorable. Absolutely adorable. It was definitely hilarious at times and cute at other times.

One of my favorite things about movies is reading the credits. They can be eye-catching.

There was a "Dolly Parton Gnome" in the movie. She was a cowgirl gnome with HUGE hips and long blond hair in braids. Guess who she was played by! Dolly Parton!!!!!

There was a fawn. The fawn was punk rock. (That's a phrase that means cool. I learned it from a 7 year old in a book that I'm reading and I thought I HAD to use it sometime.) The fawn was played by....none other than.....Ozzy Osbourne!!!!!

Executive Producer......Elton John!!!!!

Most of the music.....Elton John!!!!!!!

Wow...

After the movie, we went home and I opened some presents. I got a few books, a camera case, a keychain and a pack of silly bands.

You've gotta love them all!

Ta Ta For Now!

Angela

Might as well....

It seems like EVERYONE else in the blogging world is doing this thingy....that doesn't exactly have a name....I did this in...I think it was October, but it wasn't exactly the same and....well, it's a new year, so that doesn't really count.

So, I decided.....whatever, might as well just do it...look at the bright side of things, at least I won't run out of things to do for a blog post.

Since today is really the 4th day of February....that means I have to do Day 1. And Day 2. And Day 3. And.....Day 4.

Day 1: A favorite song.

Day 2: A favorite movie.

Day 3: A favorite book.

Day 4: A favorite band.

Day 5: A favorite quote.

Day 6: A moment you wish you could relive.

Day 7: Five things you couldn't possibly live without.

Day 8: A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life.

Day 9: A photo you took.

Day 10: A photo of you taken over ten years ago.

Day 11: A photo of you taken recently.

Day 12: A song that you want played at your wedding(or was played).

Day 13: A guilty pleasure.

Day 14: A vacation you would like to take.

Day 15: A person you admire.

Day 16: A song that makes you cry.

Day 17: An art piece.

Day 18: A time when you felt passionate and alive.

Day 19: A talent of yours.

Day 20: A hobby of yours.

Day 21: Something you know you do differently than most people.

Day 22: A website.

Day 23: A way in which you want to be remembered.

Day 24: A movie no one would expect you to love.

Day 25: A recipe.

Day 26: A childhood memory.

Day 27: A physical feature you love.

Day 28: Hopes, Dreams and plans you have for the next 365 days

Those are all the things that I have to do. Easy, right? Wrong.......I guess I'll start with...Day 1.

DAY 1
A favorite song.

Stupid bold lettering isn't shutting off!!!!!

whatever....

A favorite song? Wow...that's gonna be a little bit hard....
i think...definitely....

Well, you know there's a lot of songs out there and....yeah, my favorite is....

Your Love Is A Song by Switchfoot

I'd put a video up so you could listen to it, but you've all heard it and if you REALLY want to listen to it then....YouTube it! :p Sorry, that was kind of rude...

Day 2.
A favorite movie

That's definitely a tough one. There's so many good movies.

I love Anastasia. And Ponyo. And Xmen.

How about I just say....my favorite movie is.

Tangled. Despicable Me. Toy Story 3. The Sorcerer's Apprentice. Inception. Beezus and Ramona.

yeah...that sounds about right....

Oh! And Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1.

Day 3
A favorite book.

STOP DOING THIS TO ME!!!!!!!

First a song, then a movie, now a book?!?!

I love so many books. So many.

Normally, I would be obligated to say the Bible, but no matter how much I want to say that and make myself sound good....honestly, the Bible isn't my favorite book. I mean, I love the Bible. I learn so much from it, but I don't picture it as a book. I picture it as a letter. A letter to me. A letter to you. God's words in a letter to us. That's how I see the Bible, not as a book.

My favorite book is The Door Within.

By Wayne Thomas Batson.

It is a very good allegory type book. Christian fantasy.....it's so good! It helps you learn so much about God and His ways...in a different, yet fun way. Not like a sermon, or reading straight from the Bible.

Day 4.
A favorite band.

Uh....

Hawk Nelson.

Is.

My.

Friend.

And.

My.

Favorite.

Band.

By.

Far.

Was that a good enough post for you????

I hope.....

Food is good for you.

Angela

Overwhelming Heat

Today has been such a bad day.

To start it all off, at 6:30 or earlier, I had an asthma attack. I was coughing and couldn’t breath too well. I knew that I needed to get my inhaler, which was in my bag downstairs. I climbed out of bed, only to realize that I couldn’t stand up so well. I felt extremely dizzy and didn’t want to walk all the way down the hallway and attempt to go downstairs, get the inhaler and come back up, so I didn’t. I crawled back into bed and coughed and coughed and coughed. I tried to call out to mom, so she could go get my inhaler, but as I couldn’t breath that well, I couldn’t get enough air to talk. Finally, after a long period of trying to catch my breath, I started breathing better and the coughing calmed down. I was exhausted. I fell asleep.

Then, twenty-five minutes later, I awoke, so I could get ready for church, when I realized I didn’t feel all that well. In a few minutes mom came into my room and stated, “You don’t look very good.” She felt my forehead and said, “Honey, I think you have a fever.” She departed, to find the thermometer, and I stayed put, lying in my bed. When she returned, she stuck the thermometer into my mouth. I had a 103.9 fever. Not good. Mom insisted on taking me into the ER, but I refused. Out of all the things in the world that I hate the most, going to the ER is one of them. I lay in bed, after taking Advil. Although I didn’t get to church, I got some rest and watched a bunch of movies. I watched: A Christmas Carol (Disney), How To Train Your Dragon (DreamWorks), Because of Winn-Dixie, and Beauty and the Beast twice. I love all those movies, except for Winn-Dixie. I don’t like that movie very much. Now, I am typing this up.

To top it all off, tomorrow my family and I are leaving for Ohio for a few days to visit family. We do this once a year and all stay at this lodge. Now..since I have a fever, I can’t go….:( So I’m staying here with my dad, because he has to work, while mom, Zechariah and Lucas leave for Ohio. WAH!!!!

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I did get some interesting Christmas presents though, so maybe I can use some of those to entertain myself…sort of….

I got two shirts, a pair of Puma tennis shoes, a pair of flip-flops I’ve been wanting for a while, a new sketchpad, a Webkinz (an adorable moose that I named Spritz), two boxes of jelly beans, a pack of silly bands, a wood burning kit (which is a slight joke), a calendar, a new journal, a drawing, new guitar picks, two books (Reckless by Cornelia Funke and Hood by Lawhead…hehe, I don’t remember his first name…), two gift cards (iTunes and Books A Million), a deck of cards, an white knit hat with a bill, and then some family presents (which consist of Wii games and movies), oh! and I got an ornament. Zechariah, Lucas and I all get ornaments every Christmas. This year mine was Pooh and Piglet. :D I was happy with it. :D

If there’s anything else I got, I’m sorry because I can’t remember it, but if I do, then I will tell you! OH! I remembered something. I got a Stellar Kart CD. :D

Yep, so that’s my Christmas. :)

Over and Out.

Angela

The Holly and the Ivy

This is a song that I never quite understood and I thought that I’d try to explain it in my own words (which may not be the best words and explanation.)

The holly and the ivy,

Holly- a Christmas plant, ivy- uh…

When they are both full grown

They have grown fully…

Of all the trees that are in the wood

There are very many trees in the wood, and out of all of them…

The holly bears the crown

The holly is the best, the highest and most important of all.

O the rising of the sun

The sun rises in the east every year

And the running of the deer

Deer definitely run…fast…

The playing of the merry organ

Organs are wonderful instruments. They play merrily.

Sweet singing of the choir

If they’re on tune…

The holly bears a blossom

A beautiful blossom

As white as lily flower

As white as snow

And Mary bore sweet Jesus Christ

A wonderful story.

To be our sweet Savior

A great thing.

O the rising of the sun

And the running of the deer

The playing of the merry organ

Sweet singing of the choir

The holly bears a berry

A great berry. Beautiful.

As red as any blood

Blood is richly red, so..that ought to be really red…

And Mary bore sweet Jesus Christ

True, true, true…

To do poor sinners good

Very true. The best thing that has happened to us.

O the rising of the sun

And the running of the deer

The playing of the merry organ

Sweet singing of the choir

The holly bears a prickle

As sharp as any thorn;

And Mary bore sweet Jesus Christ

On Christmas Day in the morn.

O the rising of the sun

And the running of the deer

The playing of the merry organ

Sweet singing of the choir

The holly bears a bark

As bitter as any gall;

And Mary bore sweet Jesus Christ

For to redeem us all.

O the rising of the sun

And the running of the deer

The playing of the merry organ

Sweet singing of the choir

The holly and the ivy

Now both are full well grown,

Of all the trees that are in the wood,

The holly bears the crown.

O the rising of the sun

And the running of the deer

The playing of the merry organ

Sweet singing of the choir

Okay, this isn’t working that great…the lyrics are good and understandable if you read them through. They’re very interesting and definitely have meaning, but me explaining it is obviously not the best idea. Maybe…hmm…as it is Christmas Eve, I would like to type up something interesting about Christmas, but have naught a word to say. Rightfully, I could just say that I love Christmastime, although I’m not exactly into the Christmas spirit.

We made gingerbread houses tonight and mine doesn’t look all that great…it’s a little sloppy…

Back to the Christmas spirit thing. It’s really weird, I thought I would have gotten it by now, but I haven’t gotten it yet. I mean as I type this, it is 11:49 P.M. Almost Christmas. Where is the spirit?

I feel that this season has been melancholy and boring compared to others I’ve had. ;0

Over and Out.

Angela

Rainbow Veins

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

Here are the questions:
IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
’Fresher than the night at the W’ by TobyMac

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
’Norwegian Wood’ by the Beatles

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
’Love Addict’ by Family Force 5

Oh boy….

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
’Change’ by Group 1 Crew

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
’I Don’t think now is the best time’ by Hans Zimmer (Pirates 3 soundtrack)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
’Life Itself’ by Aaron Shust

Hmm…that’s…good. I think…

WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
’Get Your Back Off the Wall’ by Family Force 5

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
’Monster’ by Skillet

Ooohh….that’s quite comforting…

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
’Save Ourselves’ by VOTA

That’s bad isn’t it?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
’It’s Over’ by Hawk Nelson
that’s…uh…;)

WHAT IS 2+2?
’More Than It Seems’ by Kutless
Haha…that’s hilarious…

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
’By Your Side’ by Tenth Avenue North

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
’Crush’ by David Archuleta

oh…that fits doesn’t it? No…I don’t like anyone so…lol..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
’On the Wing’ by Owl City

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
’The Breaking of the Fellowship’ from Lord of the Rings

That’s a little…scary.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
’Safe’ by Britt Nicole

Aww….that’s so sweet….for someone who actually ‘likes’ someone…sorry guys…I just don’t like anyone

WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?
’Let God Arise’ by Chris Tomlin

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
’You’ll Never Know’ by Krystal Meyers

This one cracked me up. :D I’m still laughing! lol!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
’High of 75’ by Relient K
What??!!! I don’t get it…

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
’Reality’ by Newsboys

Does anyone else find it weird that I’m getting some really good ones?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
’My Home’ by Thousand Foot Krutch

What? This is slightly….confusing..

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
’Glory’ by Casting Crowns

I don’t want glory….:p

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
’Circle of Life’ from The Lion King

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
’Forgiven’ by Skillet

That’s the worst? I don’t think so.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
’Your Love’ by Rush of Fools

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
’Morning Hymn and Alleluia’ from the Sound of Music

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
’Born Again’ by the Newsboys

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
’No Ordinary Love’ by TobyMac

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
’The Last Night’ by Skillet

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
’You Decide’ by Brandon Heath

Haha…that’s funny.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
’All the Right Moves’ by OneRepublic

Hmmm….I think I’d rather change the wrong moves…

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
’My Favorite Things’ by Family Force 5

WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO SAY TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU?
’We Are Loved’ by David Crowder Band

WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?
’Rainbow Veins’ by Owl City

Well, that was interesting. I find it quite funny that I actually had a lot of sensible answers!!!!

angela the awesome

I’d tag people, but I don’t have anyone to tag…so…